On Pain, Cause Ish Be Hurting - No Cap

I found out some news today and I was extremely taken back. Not surprised, just taken back. Please see the meme above for a direct depiction. I felt like the photo above. Then emotions started taking me over like I was in Destiny’s Child. I had to make myself cry. I listened to Resentment by Beyonce. I listened to Brian McKnight. I thought about Mary J and that is where I drew the line. I told myself that we are not Goin' Down. Lol. I felt like I needed to talk and I needed some answers because I had some questions. I had a choice in that moment. Do I want sympathy or do I want solid advice to actually get me through this situation? If I wanted sympathy, no offense, I could have dialed any of my best friends in my phone. Literally, they would have told me how great a person I am and that this individual was terrible and I deserve better. Such is true. Easy win. But I decided to call someone who I knew would cover me and challenge me and not let me drown in my emotions. Somebody with grit. Somebody that would tell me to “stannn up.” – no cap. I ended up calling one of my brothers, not biological. Still, a brother nonetheless. In 30-minutes I went from crying profusely to laughing to checking my ego to the bible and then to understanding that I am not actually drowning. This pool of emotions was 3 feet deep, but it was overwhelming so it felt like I was in the ocean. I felt like Kevin Hart when his dad threw him in the pool and he couldn't swim. But, literally, I could have just stood up. So that's what I did. We discussed how our pain is not special because there is always someone with the same story if not worse. We discussed being grateful and thankful for life as it is, without change. We discussed disappointment. We discussed accountability. One of the funny things he said is “you already know what you’re getting when you go to McDonalds.” Lol. He's absolutely right. I asked him if I was easy to lie to. He said, “people lie because they’re liars.” Then I realized I couldn't take another individual's actions personal. We talked about blessings and abundance. He told me not to get wearing in well doing. To dive a bit deeper, I got extremely honest a raw with him and said I don’t think I have any blessings lined up because life has just been so emotionally taxing. Then we discussed my position in life and how none of this altered because of the news. The only thing that shook was my emotions and those change like the weather. We discussed that I look better than ever, I have a great job (just got a great raise), emotionally well, can do what I want, a place to live, etc. Then we ended the call on a great note. Life just sucks sometimes. Once the call ended, there was a shift in my perspective. The situation is not so bad. It just sucks and when things suck, get a straw. I got that from my trainer also. I typically complain like Kourtney Kardashian in my workouts and he’ll say, “you can quit or you can get a straw.” In this I am reminded of Jesus in the garden when He asked God to let the cup pass when it was time for him to go to the cross. Some things in life are not going to feel good, but we have to suck it up. Every situation is not going to go down easy like our favorite cocktail. Some stuff we have to hold our noses and chug it. Its called cultivation. Think about the NBA. Every time one of the players get hot, they get fouled. Life is a foul and it's your duty to cross Life up so bad that it continues to fouls you. People on the bench don't get fouled. People without the ball don't typically get fouled. Getting fouled means you're in the game and you're playing hard. So, I'll eventually get over this and so will you. Sometimes life sucks and there’s nothing we can do. How great it would be to skip through life with no stress, no worries, no disappointment, no issues, no failures. But, on the road to anything great we all have to drink our ‘cup’. Get it down however you need to and continue to break Life’s ankles. What's even funnier is that all of this happened while I was working. Lol Go figure.

But I could be wrong about all of this – no cap. Enlighten me.

Love Cici